I took this self portrait in 2018 after I shaved my head for the first time. I was an extremely self conscious person at this point in my life and posing for the camera made me nervous. I think this was one of my first self portraits ever actually. I had always found comfort in the camera, but never felt comfortable in front of it, so this was my attempt to get over that initial fear and just expose myself. I think the way I am depicted still somewhat ‘hiding’ behind the camera in this image is important to note. This was also when I first started to experiment with large format film which was exciting.
Learning and Unlearning through Photography: Alec Ilstrup
Updated: Apr 13, 2021